Missing Mistress

Oh, don't worry... this is not the typical Owner vanishes without a trace post.

Mistress is moving in real life and will not be returning for a few days. She has left this girl bound and gagged, kneeling nude and helpless. But Mistress has allowed this girl to travel. Hm... Mistress knows how uncomfortable this girl is with exposing herself like this to others... especially in this new blonde bimbo makeover She did.

Maybe this is a test from Mistress to see how much this girl trusts and obeys her Owner. Maybe this girl is required to travel and expose herself to others just so Mistress will be pleased. Maybe this girl thinks waaay too much for her own good.

This girl is not here to complain about her position, and would never imagine upsetting Mistress with her words here, and prays she does not. But it is not easy for this girl to interact with others, so maybe she is just a simple object to be gawked at by others until Mistress returns.

It has only been a day or two and already this girl misses Mistress very badly and prays She is well.

Please return to this girl soon Mistress. You are all this girl has in SL and she needs You always. This girl is very empty without You in her life Mistress, she has learned that... even if it took a while to figure it out.

this girl loves You Mistress,
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Property of Mistress Zuri Simca

This is Mistress Zuri Simca. She owns this girl now completely. In the past, this girl talked always about 'me me me', but Mistress has tried to express how foolish this girl really has behaved. In the end, as much as this girl complains or argued, Mistress was always right.

In the last blog, this girl discussed her time as Bane and how educational it was for her through its difficulty. But when Mistress finally released this girl from her complete isolation, it did not take long before she was doing the same stupidity and disobedience she has done in the past.

Mistress quickly returned her to banishment, and isolation from everyone except the one that matters... her Owner, Mistress Zuri. And even then, when Mistress explained why it was happening, all this girl did was to cry and complain and beg for mercy. None of it mattered because it was important that this girl finally learn her lesson.

It took some time, but Mistress finally broke this girl. This girl is not here to socialize with others, or complain about what happens to her. This girl has tried her best to stop thinking on her own, and is not allowed to speak without permission from Mistress. This girl is Mistress's slave, and is here to please Her completely and totally in every way possible.

Oh, this girl is far from perfect, and still has many flaws, and can only hope and pray Mistress will be patient with her... but if not, this girl will be punished and accepts it without thought or complaint, because it is what must be done to instruct this girl.

This girl tries to come up with ways to please her Mistress, but knows she will never be what Mistress wants, and it is very sad and a bit depressing... maybe to Her and to this girl, but she will still try as best as she can. It is a foolish choice this girl often makes, and she hates it but it is an important choice for many reasons. This girl can only hope that She understands and accepts it, as difficult as it may be.

It took a long time before this girl accepted Her as this girl's Owner, but now that she has, she knows what her focus is, completely and totally. Will Mistress sell this girl ever? Maybe, or maybe not... but it is not what this girl thinks about, or cares about. This girl is here to please Mistress however she can.

Mistress gave this girl a makeover the other day, and hopes Mistress is pleased with her more now:

Maybe You will not recognize this girl's appearance or mannerism's if you should see her again, but your thoughts about her or her Owner are not this girl's concern... only making her Mistress proud, and happy with her service.

Thank You Mistress for taking and keeping this girl and teaching her many important and maybe difficult lessons.

You have become everything to this girl, You are Goddess to her, and she knows she is nothing without Your presence and guidance.



she loves You Mistress.
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The Good, The Bad, and The Bane

Bane you ask? And wtf is with that picture?? Well... that is an interesting story.

But first, a quicky recap. So if you've been following along with my tale of online woes, (See all the previous posts before now), you'll know i went from regular D/s chat sites, to Gor chat sites, to Secondlife Gor chat sites, and now i've returned to the wonderful chaotic world of D/s, only now i'm trying it out for size on SL.

If you also recall, i felt as if i had this big giant sized curse on my ass preventing me from keeping an Owner, or any type of Home online for any length of time, through no fault of my own, (or it didn't seem like any of it was my fault anyways).

Well, returning to the world of D/s after being in Gor was a bit of a culture shock. It was still a bit odd trying to figure out how to talk and interact with O/others after doing roleplay for as long as i had. Actually, it shouldn't have been so difficult cause most of my time in Gorland i was dealing with drama that had NOTHING to do with roleplay.

So after getting all the fancy proper D/s gear 'n stuff, i began scoping out potential Owners. Turns out there are SOOOOOO many on SL that have NO clue about D/s at all! Most simply want to have sex on a poseball, or they want to collect as many subs/slaves as they can, (cause the one with the most wins i guess...), or they just want to carry a whip and/or spank and say they are Dominant. Oh! Or my favorite, the switches!

It seems that as i continued to search for 'quality', all i found was quantity... and not much of that. Turns out the amount of subs/slaves/switches WAY out-weighs the Dominants on SL, *sighs*.

But don't distress too much! FINALLY, i was contacted by Someone that truly seemed to have a clue! Her name was Zuri Simca.

She seemed interested in me, and after reading Her profile, i thought... YES! Someone GETS IT! She isn't on SL to have sex on a poseball, She's not here to do what 'i' want, and She's not looking to collect 20 billion subs/slaves. This might actually work!

i've always said and known that serving a real Dominant is difficult, but i was ready for the challenge. In my heart, i thought, finally i had found the perfect Owner for me.

There was a catch, She has a partner on SL named Gabriel Sion. i guess this shouldn't be a 'catch', but for me it was. i met Him, and TRULY TRULY disliked Him. i felt He was arrogant, and had no concept of D/s at all, and just a rude jerk.

Well... maybe i have a bit of a stubborn prideful streak in me too... *smiles extra sweetly*

In the end, i made an extra stupid decision. my Real life began getting a bit busy, cause now i was seein' a fella *smiles lots*. It began to get more and more difficult to be on SL, and after my meeting with Master Gabriel... i did the worst thing i could have done or have ever done in my entire online life... i began to think. Whats worse, is i began to think the wrong things. Eventually, i said screw it... i didn't need this Dominant couple, and just removed my items and poofed.

Mistress Zuri spoke with me, and made me feel worse than i already had about my decision. i tried not to let it bother me, but it really did, because i knew She was right.

i was cursed, and now i was making stupid decisions. Then i found out about something that might solve all my problems. i learned about The Bane.

The concept is based on a story called Eudeamon, (which you can read all about here). Basically, it is punishment through isolation and banishment, which some extra genius said they could re-create in SL.

The Bane can not interact with others, through speech, they can not hear others, their vision is clouded, they can not edit, or build items, they can't read notecards or open their inventory, they can't wear clothing other than the tight black latex, and even simple basic emotes are very limited and difficult to do.

i finally made a decision, that this was my future. i was cursed, and had hurt others, and felt there was no home for me. i was frustrated and just exhausted, so i had found Someone who would lock me forever in my banesuit, and keep me isolated from the world. This was both punishment for my actions, and to protect people from me so i would not hurt anyone anymore.

Oh, i see you rolling your eyes, but this truly is an extreme form of punishment... more so than i realized it would be in the beginning. Not hearing others is the most painful thing to experience. They talk, but you can't hear. you want to interact, but you can't. It truly winds up being very torturous and even a bit depressing. The picture above was how i appeared as Bane.

In time, Mistress Zuri saw me as a Bane, and felt this was perfect for me, and might teach me some things. Oh, yes its true i could not hear Her, and She could not hear me, but limited emotes were still possible, so there was basic communication.

In the end, She was right... again. It taught me focus and respect, and to truly appreciate others maybe more than i had in the past. It taught me to really appreciate ANY kindness my Owner allows me.

After almost a month of being Bane, my "Controller" chose to release me from my banesuit. Her reasons... well, they are complicated *smiles sweetly*. But maybe this was for the best, and destiny, because i was able to express my regrets to Mistress Zuri.

She offered to keep me, as a Bane. i would be Hers to control completely in ever way. i discovered it really hurts to be wrong, but She knows what is best for me, and i am so very grateful.


Oh but wait... i'm not wearing the tight latex catsuit in that picture...! Does this mean She did not keep me as Bane????

i guess i'll have to do another post for those answers and more
*smiles sweetly*
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My So-Called-Secondlife

In part 4 of my ongoing dramedy that is my life online, i'd like to talk about a lil something called "Secondlife" *insert dramatic music here* (oh, for the other 3 parts, um... i'm sure there's a way to give links here to show but since i'm not that smart, i'll just let Y/you look up the first 3 posts i've done here... it'll be like a treasure hunt or something).

In my last post, i talked about the hours and hours and FREAKIN' HOURS it took to fine tune my look and prepare for the wonderful world of Gor SL. Turns out that in the end, no matter how hard you try to make yourself look 'perfect', its never quite good enough. PLUS, SL has this whole 'go shopping to improve your looks' thingy that will make you go broke too.

Well, maybe you don't have to spend money, but... it helps. Plus lets face it, any 'chat site' that allows you to shop, can't be all bad.

Oh, but wait... i'm getting a bit distracted here. Where was i? Oh yes, stumbling my way to a new Gor home in SL with my (i thought) fancy new looks.

Let me explain something... if you are female, and want someone who *THINKS* they are Dominant to snag your ass, go to Gor. Work out the details later, but thats a pretty good start on beginning your life in online slavery. This doesn't mean its any good, but a collar is a collar... right? HA!

Well, since i know how to 'work the system' *smiles a lil extra sweetly*, i figured i'd get snagged and then find the Owner i want and go from there. *DISCLAIMER* This is NOT recommended for those lacking in brain cells! Mind you, i'm no super-genius, but like i said, most Goreans don't have many brain cells to begin with, so they're fairly easy to *coughs lightly* 'top from the bottom' (note to other subs/slaves reading... 'topping from the bottom' is bad... but if they're not bright enough to know you're doing it... go for it!).

i think i was in SL Gor for like 30 seconds before a "Slaver Master" snagged me. But this was a bit different from my HTML days! He put a leash on me, and really tugged me along! kk, remember how i said things can 'feel' real to me online? Well, this cheesy lil avatar that i made and the animations, and now giving someone the power to yoink me all over the place, really added an interesting new dimension to things!

But wait... there's more! A cage really 'held' me... binding fiber (aka Gor ropes) really bound me and made it so i couldn't move... and blindfolds really 'blinded me'! That 'real' feeling i have when i chat online, just got a bit more 'real'. Even if the 3-D animation looks a bit goofy sometimes, it can still feel even more real being restricted by things.

So, in the tradition of all things Gor, i was yoinked this way and that, and eventually found an Owner who was PERFECT for me! A "Tatrix", (aka Queen of the city of Thentis). Yes most of Gor is very male dominated, but in this city, a Woman rules (You go girl! err... Mistress!). This was very freakin' cool... um... until my curse returned.

i talked about it a bit in my last blog, about how people and homes began to vanish around me. It continued here. The moment i began to get comfortable and made some really good friends who really helped me make some kinda sense out of the extra confoosing world of SL, (Free and kajira aka Dominant and submissive), things got worse. Overnight, the city and Mistress that i was really liking, just went poof. i logged in and saw NOTHING! Apparently a huge fight between the land Owner and Her caused a nuclear war i guess and everything disappeared. Now, again i was homeless.

For a short time, i tried bringing a Mistress from HTML Gor to SL... that didn't work out so well either, and again i was Owner-less and Homeless.

So... screw it... Gor no more! i decided to explore the wonderful world of BDSM in SL... and see what other letters i can come across.

UGH! i STILL have more to write!
To be continued in Part 5....
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The Good, The Bad, and The SL!

So, there i was being all kajira like in HTML Gor chat sites, and having some really cool times, and having some extra sucky times. my "Papers" are listed in my links if A/anyone is interested in knowing my Owners in Gorland.

i think i mentioned before that i've never been a slut, so of course the wonderful world of Gor COULD make my non-sluttiness a bit challenging. Fortunately, i was consistently owned by a Mistress, or at the very least, a Couple, so the sexy stuff was not so important. Well... sure it showed up sometimes *blushes*, but there is a HUGE difference between serving a Gorean Mistress, over a Gorean Master.

Most of my time in the Gorland was spent serving drinks/food, making jewelry, goofing off with friends, and sometimes scribbling out lil avatar pictures for others or myself. Oh sure, i had the basic b.s. chores to do, (dishes, laundry, feed/run from the vulo etc.), but that was my life for about two years, and say what Y/you want about Gor... it was mostly pretty cool.

Until...
*insert dramatic music here*Something... bad... happened. It hurt, a lot. Actually this was the second time something horrible happened to me in the world of Gor. i will not discuss it here. Sorry, you'll have to use your imagination, but it was enough for me to want to leave and never return.

But... i am sincere and honest in all i do online, and could not simply vanish... ever. If i were to be 'killed' in my roleplay, it would have been an easy out. But i was denied this.

So i was hurt, for a long time. Just going through the motions, and basically... existing. Was what happened my fault? Maybe... but the others involved were still total tools, so it works out.

Eventually, with the help of friends, i was able to bring myself back to a bit of sanity, and eventually, i started to smile again and have fun... but i was very leery, and kept things at arms length.

Now, a lot of you may read this and say... "wow... this chicky's psychotic!". Well, i KNOW i could shut off computer and hide under the bed if i wanted to. But i think i mentioned in my original blog thingy, this can FEEL very real. If you can't understand, there is no way i can make you, but i have spoken to others that feel the same way. Maybe we are all psychotic. But i think to do many of the things we do online, takes a 'special' (read 'touched in the head'). i hope this makes a bit of sense to everyone. It is basically a 'secondlife'.

Oh, there's that word again!

So, things started getting very strange in the world of Gor. Homes, and people started to vanish. It was like one day i would be sold to someone, and have a very happy home, then a month later, the home would disappear, and i would be sold to someone else. This happened OFTEN. i didn't get it. i began to feel cursed. Yes, i joke, but seriously, why was this happening constantly?!

i had the same Owner in the world of Gor for almost a year, and then suddenly it was like every home and person that i came in contact with turned to dust! The first time or two it was sad, or depressing, and then after like the 5th or 6th time, i began to wonder... wtf???

i tried to spend time back in regular HTML D/s chats, but it didn't take long for the same old frustrations i felt there to return to me. i felt like i tried so hard to be pleasing and make Someone happy and proud, but who was just trying to cop a cheap feel, and who was sincere? It was so difficult to tell anymore. Oh, and then there was my 'curse'. Did it translate to other places??

i wandered through Gor for a while, like a ghost, trying to decide where to go and what to do. i was in a grey area where my Owner vanished, and released me, but didn't tell anyone *smiles sweetly*. i could pretty much do what i wanted.

Then Someone told me, "Try Secondlife... there are some Gor Homes there, and it seems to be getting more popular".

Fine... here i go, installing more crap into my puter just to talk to people... sheesh!

So, i spend about 3 or 4 hours trying to make myself look 'right' in Secondlife. UGH! What a MAJOR PAIN! Isn't there something i can hook to my brain and have the computer figure out what i want to look like?? Or at the VERY least, take a pic i like and convert that to the world of SL??

So, after touchup after touchup, i FINALLY decided to go seek out a Gor home in SL...

Oh, but there is so much more to write about!
...to be continued!
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Gor and more!

Oh! Did i say a dirty word?!?! Yes to many i did... and since i'm a dirty chicky, i'm going to say it again... GOR!! GOR....GORGORGORGAGAGOR!! Wow... now i need a bath. A good long hot bath where i will lather my entire body all over touching myself in ways to bring about many pleasures and erase the horrible memories of... whatever it was i was going to talk about *smiles extra sweetly*

kk, when last W/we met, i was saying stuff about how i was doing a lot of online slavery type of things. It was SOOOO MUCH fun!! Well, when it didn't suck anyway. i mean, sometimes it did feel like a meat market. And as i mentioned before, i was still a bit extra new to the whole 'lifestyle' thingy. i KNOW i made a lot of mistakes. i know i prolly lost a LOT of good opportunities to serve the perfect Mistress, (if there is such a thing).

It seems that most online relationships have a life-span of about 2 weeks. Go for a month, and its a record. More than that is nearly impossible, (You GO Ms. Soft and lil p!!). The problem is, where is the line between being a total ho, and making an effort to be pleasing? Because i didn't come to the rooms to just 'play', (cause yes even online i want a serious relationship and not be a big nasty slut-bag), it was hard to know where to draw the line, (or scribble in my case).

If Someone started getting TOO friendly, i would back away and say um... nope. But... well, i could talk in circles about the whole bizarre-o mindset of online D/s rooms. Basically everyone there is completely insane... um... yes, that'd be me too.

Anyway, as i was saying, i had some very good relationships, that did not last for one reason or other. Then i had some very... not so good relationships that i clung to like a leech. Remember how i mentioned the 'insane' things?

Maybe now that i have this blog thingy, i will rant endlessly about Orchid, and Soft, and Juliette, and Mei, and... oh look at the time, sorry. Not only could you write a book about my misadventures, but do an entire TV Miniseries!

Well, for now lets keep moving things forward, shall we? Yes... lets shall.

So one day, i'm... um... 'performing' in someones private message box. Someone i've known for a while before you start yelling at me about the 'slutty' things. i think it was a simple dance i was doing.

Oh, did i confuse everyone again? In a virtual world, text is totally our existence. If you have a good 'scene' with good text, it can feel VERY real. If you are not a creative typist, you're screwed. Basically how poetically can you describe what you're doing, how you're doing it, and how you feel about it. There is also a fine line between a very creative run-on sentence, and boring slop that you have to read to know whats happening.

Maybe one day i will post some of the more... entertaining goofy things. Yea, how sad is my life that i kept some of these things? Oh not for blackmail or anything, but just cause it was goofy fun.

So, here i am making my lil fingers totally numb by trying to impress the heck out of this Domme i liked by doing the worlds greatest online virtual poetic dance routine. When it was over, She said... "that looked like you learned it in Gor." Um... huh?

i've seen the rooms around but had no more interest in entering them than any other roleplay type of room i've seen with five or six geeky types waiting to see Jeri Ryan enter in a tight bodysuit. That was my vision of Gor. What do i know?

So i started asking a bit more about Gor, cause i worked hard on that dance, and thought if this is the kind of thing they do... maybe i should check it out, since the rest of my online world was having a lot of tumbleweeds blow past.

E/everyone i asked said the same thing... DON'T GO!

Of course, this only succeeded in making me want to go more!

So, i covertly checked it out one day. OMG, it REALLY impressed me!! This room had structure, and it was busy, and the text was so detailed and creative, and the avatars! OMG! WHY would anyone say this is bad?!?! Well... i'm not so good at foreshadowing, so insert it here.

i had been only observing, but one day i was given a sort of ultimatum by someone i met there. All or nothing. Stop being a voyeur and get involved. On this particular night, i had like not ONE but THREE things go bad in regular D/s chat. It was enough to convince me i needed that structure that gorland had to offer me. So i dove in head first. Got a concussion and 12 stitches.

For almost two years i was in Gorland. i still have my cheesy lil kajira papers posted on my 'homepage' showing my Owners and history and more. For a long time, i felt like i had FINALLY found a home online! i felt like it was right. Maybe it was difficult sometimes, but i LOVE a challenge! The concept is great!

Yes the concept is... but the follow-through sucks in most Gor homes.

Maybe one day again i will go on endlessly about the good, the bad and the extra ugly of Gorland. But for now, let me just say it started going dowhill after a year or so. i clung to it for dear life thinking it will be just as good as it was once before.


i even spent a month as a FW! (Oh, this is a Woman on Gor that has papers saying she can't be a slave and can own property and stuff... did i mention Gor was a bit extra sexist?).

Well, when i had all but given up on the world of Gor, i came across someone that said something life-changing to me. Not unlike the day someone said "That dance looked like you learned it in Gor", someone said "There might be some busy Gor rooms in Secondlife".

Hmm.... Maybe this is a good place to stop.

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Here i am...

So, by popular demand, i felt the need to do a blog.
kk, maybe not DEMAND... well, maybe for no reason whatsoever, but i'm here anyway dammit.

So where do i start?

i'm NOT starting at the beginning, cause thats what schools and bible classes are about. Maybe i should start at the end?

Maybe i should back up just a couple paces and start near the end.

Near the end, actually began maybe like fifteen years ago or so. First let me say i am NOT one of those people that say, "OH GOD NO!!!! Not RL!!!" i'm not afraid or ashamed. Well, to the point that i'm not giving out my home address or work phone number etc. i guess i know when to reign myself in and when its ok to give out some info.

i was born and live in a far away country called Florida. Trust me, spend some time here, and you'll understand. my Father is Japanese, and my mother is Italian and Irish. Basically this makes me a mutt. Actually because of the mix of heritage, the Asian part of me wants to submit, the Italian part wants to argue about it, then the Irish part wants to just get totally plastered.... *mmm*... i'll take a mudslide please *smiles sweetly*

Oh, and just to answer your question... i really don't speak Japanese. But sometimes i get lucky and can fake my way through a greet or sometimes i can read some, but thats about it. You see, growing up, i totally did not want to look Asian, (cause kids can be a bit cruel to anyone that looks different... go figure). my dad tried to teach me and my sister when we were growing up, but we didn't really care or want to learn or listen... typical pain in the ass brat. Hmm... i think i still am.

So here's the deal...
Its been said like a billion times in my life by others, that since i am of Japanese heritage, i MUST be submissive *sighs*... to which i will reply VERY loudly, Oh HELL NO!

Um... maybe i lie just a bit in my RL.

So, the TRUTH is, saying here and now... yes i ache to be submissive. i want to please and serve! i LOVE the idea of being controlled! Oh, and the clothes and bondage is pretty hot too *smiles innocently*

Now the question is, is this a TRUE stereotype about Japanese women, or is it just cause soooooo many people have 'told' me i am, that it sinks into my lil brain and my lil brain says 'um.. ok'.

Or maybe the reality is that i'm just a freak.

Either way, its not something i've EVER been brave enough to do in RL for like a billion reasons.

1. Because its freakin dangerous - kk, i hear you already, "Oh, but munches are perfectly safe!" HA! i imagine they are, but lets look at the facts. i'd be going myself, and exposing others as having a slave heart. Basically this is asking for trouble. Its putting a giant target on my back and aching for SOMEONE to take advantage of me. Even if there are tons of people there to keep an eye on me... it just isn't something i'm willing to do.

2. Family would NEVER understand - i have an older sis, and younger one. Plus i love my parents with all my heart and soul. Can you IMAGINE the conversation with my parents where i say to them that i want someone to control me and own me??? Yea, dad would freak, and mom would endlessly lecture about how i need to be a strong powerful woman and go out and kick ass take names etc etc blah blah.

3. Boyfriend - Oh, yes i am seeing someone RL, who has NO idea bout this kinda thing. i've sort of hinted around about it, but still, he has no clue, and the last thing i want to do is sub to a total noob. Maybe one day we will 'experiment' but he would think i'm a bit of a freak, cause of his reaction to this sorta thing in the past... so i don't talk about it. Does this mean i want to leave him for a Dominant?? Um... no... and i'll tell you why....

4. Virtual slavery - Maybe those that are 'hardcore' will read this and give me the lecture about "Oh, online is NOTHING like RL!!" UGH! If i hear ONE more person telling me about what i'm "MISSING", i'll lose my freakin' mind! Maybe this is true... prolly this is VERY true. But, its enough for me to 'get it out of my system'. Meaning i can be sub/slave online and it FEELS very real! Well, depending on the situation, but i can totally involve myself in whats going on online and i stop typing in front of a puter and suddenly i'm there! Its cool, and scary, and exciting, and hot and all the other powerful things you can imagine!

Does this mean i'll NEVER do anything in D/s in RL? Eh...maybe, maybe not. But it has to be RIGHT, not half-assed, and not out of any sort of 'desperation'. IF i happen to meet Someone who i get along with VERY well in RL on a social level, THEN i discover they are totally Domme, i would consider it very seriously, but ONLY if i feel they have a clue.

Oh... did i just say Domme? Yea, thats i guess the other 'catch'. i don't think i would ever feel right being sub to guy. It feels... dangerous. Maybe thats a bit too extreme a word. It feels... wrong. i guess i want to be equal to guys, and because guys a bit bigger than me, it feels more unsafe. Well, my b/f is no body builder, i mean he's slender, but even still... guys have this whole... testosterone thing that makes them a bit unpredictable i guess, and maybe... dangerous.

Sorry.

Oh, but that opens ANOTHER can of crap! Am i 'bi'? Well, if i am, i'm not very good at it. Publicly, nobody knows of my interest in being with another woman. And actually in RL, i've only been with three other women. But its always been very secretive and behind closed doors. But i've also had three regular b/f's in my life. Those have been public yes. Again, like D/s, it has to be the RIGHT person. i'm no slut. Never have been and never will be. And honestly, until you get to know me, i'm a bit shy and quiet... oh and after, i never shut the hell up.

So there's the set up...

Where have i been?

i started my chat world in Yahoo chat rooms, (when they had cool user chat rooms before skynet bots took over). Then i got advanced in IRC, and then to Chat Emporium, and later Chatropolis where i spent a good portion of my life being a pain in the ass to E/everyone there *smiles sweetly*

i had some FANTASTIC times! i met some VERY cool P/people and made a lot of very good friends (Kari, Linda, Soft, Lil Princess... GODD i miss you all so much!). And i met some not so good people. For as many good times as i had, i had about as many horrible painful days online too.

Oh... maybe this is a good place to end for now?
To be continued...

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